holla if ya hear me tho (soundtrack to my week)

"nice to meet you! I'm Allison"
"I've seen you around, you are always smiling"
":D"

what good do your words do
if
they
can't
under
stand
you?

"yeah my lady is on travel or whateva"

...cuz you did not do your math!

went to strip club thurs. tues is the better night i hear. learning tricks. i definitely need a retractable stripper pole in my bedroom. absolutely no excuse. it needs to be retractable so when family comes over they never see it, and so that it won't destroy the vibe in the bedroom. it just adds spice, its not a prerequisite. what goes down should be sacred. nothin' wrong with teasing every once in awhile though. where dem dollas at? lol.

random thought: men are SO wack.

have you had a cocojito? if not you haven't LIVED.

rrrrrring ring ring
rrrrrring ring ring
::click. call ignored::
wtf! mom!?
mom via txt: hit u l8r. i'm chillin. loveu.
me: ???????

wa wa wa wa waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

workin hard. traffic is a beast. suited up everyday though.
i NEED to get on the courts. i punk out when i go, though. they are never gonna let me play unless i get there first. they don't know i can ball though.

sometimes i think of cutting off my hair. but then i don't.

"sup SEXY!"
::silence::
"peace, sista"
response: good morning!



this is such a transitional period. i'm learning and doing things on my own.
ready for autumn.
most don't know what is behind these glasses. don't let em fool you.

You 2.0

the prerequisites of failure, disappointment, and heartbreak are faith, energy, and effort. there is no shame in that. you are, effectively, strengthening yourself by experiencing these "negative" things. you are evolving and creating a newer, better, stronger, smarter version of yourself. true, it takes time to absorb the relative magnitude of pain felt from these experiences. but from healing and introspection emerges wisdom and resilience. armed with those two weapons, you will make any future project manager, friend, or potential significant other
wildly happy/fortunate
to have
the upgraded version
of you.

be thrilled with every experience - good or bad. it's shaping you and propelling you towards the person you NEED to be.

thank you.

moments in time

one of my supervisors comes to me and says "hey, your team lead and alternate aren't coming in today. You have to give the briefing of the project this morning at 9." I know I looked at him like he was crazy. Then a Danis moment popped in my head. Remember the class where he showed the clip from the Hunt for the Red October? The scene where James Earl Jones told one of the Baldwin brothers he was giving the briefing as they walked to it? That's me today. The only difference is that I'm not an expert on this subject and I have 1 hour to overview the project.

...i need to start writing again. a bit selfish to keep life's characters/experiences in my head, no?

beamin'

You see I hood a lot, and yeah I nerd some
Hood's where the heart is, nerd's where the words from
Don't represent either, because I merged them
see kids who wanna leave, and I encourage them
Go out and see the world, never return from
Yeah, you don't come back, unless you learn some
And baby girl, what does it matter where your purse from?
Your hurr done, your nails did, your ass fat, but you're dumb
Mix Melyssa Ford with Maya Angelou
Become a top model and Sojourner too
I try to follow this, what Muhammad do
It's such a old soul inside the sonic youth
Swear I'm Ferrari'd up, and I'm conscious, too
I don't prophesize... I promise you

"Stay hurtable. Stay human. Stay open. It's always worth it."

if you say so...

thank me later

happy summer, loves.

http://usershare.net/ploibccxvi6c

and then the chapter closed

and i was ok (not happy, not sad) with it.

::kanyeshrug::